letting you go...forgetting you

tsk...didnt want to sleep..i got no mood..at last i found out the truth...realised that ive been trying to run away from Fate..and the fact i got it all wrong...im so embarressed...i wish i can get drunk...getting over this shit..but i cant drink...oh well..when i found out whos that lucky guy actually...i was relly happy for you...even though my heart now have broken to a thousand bits..now i'm willing to let you go..i'll just forget you..

thanks for letting me feel those emotoins for the first time..those stares,glances,gazing into each others' eyes and trying to read youre mind at the same time..i really enjoyed every moment of it..and will cherish it for as long as i live..i really loved you..and as i said..i would do almost anything for to make you happy...i guess letting you go would be the best thing...hahas..recallimg those incidents..and all those blog entries i have made..hahahas..how embarrassing..dont want to believe the truth....Now i know how it feels to be 'slapped' at the face..actually felt this loads of time...but this is the most significant..come to think of it..i'll never be good enough for you..never..a fat idotic boy who thinks that he can chage the stars totally..hahahahahahawell i dont want to toy with my feelings now..very crucial year..also dont want to mess with yours..its ok for me to be hurt...so long as youre not..told you ill always be happy for you..

if youre woorying about me..(like hell you would)..dont..i'll do just fine..im a risk taker..dont give a damn about me..go to him..tell him before its too late..or youll regret it..no matter what..im sure hell appreciate you..saying this just want you to be happy and thats it...

look..even if goes well..i will see what you have become in ten years time..i'll wait for the next ten years..see if i can have another chance..gambling these ten years..tsk..gd luck..this is the last entry me writing about you most probably...

i'll wait...