so the unlucky...lol..

fine....i lost yesterdae...U-20s...really funnylah...lol....lost to a nube...lol i think too much but i forgot being a nube...he is a brainless fencer...LOL HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!all he do is just go in for the attack...then he hit...all i did was just a simple parry...and a direct counterattack..then ONE LIGHT!!!WOOOHOOOO!!!!almost all my 9 points in i scored in the bout was one light lor....the reason why i lost is that i was really too careful...and too careless..i anticipated too much...i expected too much where my opponent attacks...although i can feel myself that i have improved a lil' bit (hehe...from "bad...to...not bad")...i am still rather panicky...so i learned one lesson when play defense...
'do not be careless....at the same time do not be too careful either..'
'you cant beg for the cake and eat it...'
todae at skool...i was feeling veri fucked up...i dun noe why...i am stuck in a dilemma...my perth trip with the skool clashes with a talk on tips for o's...then i was like "aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!DARN!!!WTF!!!a great way to start my day!!!!"that was one...secondly...my classmate was pissing me off...then i failed my class test(i am sick of losing out academically!!!)...and also... i almost hurt myself twice while parkouring this afternoon...i was lucky for that time i guess...lol...thirdly...it was her...i noe i shouldnt have done this...but i cant stop thinkin of her lately...this is totally crazy...fine...i am in love with her...but i need to focus...seriously forcing myself not thinkin bout her seriously feel really the FUCKED UP!!

i will feel that sumtinks a miss...its like a part of me is missing...i cant help myself feeling like this...let me tell you something...i cant make your face disappear in my mind...if i do its like i cant breathe...i was still overwhelmed by the gaze you gave me...i dun give a damn about wad had happened to me last year...let bygone be bygone...i really dont give a damn...
i just dont give a damn....