Technically it took me 3 days to complete War Trash by Han Jin although I spent a week on this book, well that' because I spent the other 4 days doing something else. Overall it's a really good read, very political in fact. After reading the book, it makes me think that all these political ideas that defines the way we live are full of shit. Democracy is too biased, Communism is too practical, monarchy is hierarchical which does not make the best use of potentially capable leaders, Nationalism can be a little too barbaric and Dictatorship is too brutal and ruthless. Countries start wars because their pride and ego has been bruised, as a result both parties suffered heavy losses and many of its citizens lost their lives just because their leaders want to "save face". Those who survived the war are just mere war trash and are of no use for the country anymore. Those who were held captive got demoted and became a disgrace to the country without considering the situation and their struggle to survive for the sake of their leaders. These poor men had been convinced to fight the war for the sake of their country. Actually they've only been fighting to protect their country's belief. Take the Vietnam War for example, the intervention of the United States had resulted in thousands of casualties and several more wounded. These survivors also suffered psychological effects due to the war. And actually it turns out that technically the US wasnt even involved before the conflict even started. They just butted in because the Vietnam War involves democratic and communist ideas.

Muay thai practice turned out to be okay. I've been learning a lot lately, like what I should do when I am in a clinch (trust me I was like a dummy when coach asked us to clinch each other and start counterattacking), although we spend most of our time sharpening our techniques. We haven't been sparring for two weeks now, but I prefer it to be that way because i can't even punch and kick properly. LOL. Anyway, training has been canceled for two weeks due to exam break. I guess we can resume practice on the 6th of February. There's a Muay Thai tournament coming up on the 1st, an inter-varsity championships at SMU. One of our fighters will be competing in that event. I really have to go and watch this tournament and this will be my first time watching a real Muay Thai match. But first, I gotta mug hard for the exams.

Speaking of exams, I don't know what to do about my course. I mean I can't really get a decent pass from any of my modules, the module which I never fail to get straight As happened to be CRS and also happened to be the only module that always topped in class. Ironically this CRS is irrelevant to my course because it has got nothing to do with engineering at all. You know what, I have never been able to see myself as an engineer working at some power plant. I really didn't know what's got into me when I enrolled for this course. I thought I could pulled it off when I had trouble coping with it and I thought I really didn't have a choice. I finally realized that I had chosen the wrong subject to study. I thought about switching course, and the Diploma in Human Resources Management with Psychology has got me interested. It's a new course established in SP and it's going to start this year. There's no COP for this diploma as it is new. So I thought I stand a chance in getting that course. I really wanted to switch course and I haven't been doing well unlike my other classmates who had no problem passing the modules even when they didn't study. I only got a D when I really mug hard, and I'll get an F if I didn't study at all. So I don't really think I can fit in well in this course. Anyway I'll still spend 4 years in SP even if I didn't switch course because I know that I will have to forward module Digital Electronics as I just screwed up the lab test. Plus, there's a chance for me to fail Autocadd if I don't get full marks for the upcoming test due to my missing answer in my first Lab test. To sum it up, I've lost the motivation to study let alone doing well in this course. The only thing left is to let my parents know about my decision. I've talked to Mr. Neo and he told me what to do.

On a lighter note, mom and dad will be back tonight after their three week pilgrimage! Their arrival time will be at 2 a.m tonight. Really glad that they are coming back home but I bet that both of them have gained a lot of weight after these three weeks! lmao