Wow....
I never expected you to be like that. After all we've been through, all the fuck ups and tears that we shared, you are willing to let it all end like this? How could you be so self-centered and ignorant. To be honest I never expect that from you, or at least I refused to. I was willing to share my world with you, going higher than the mountains and deeper than the ocean. I thought that you would understand. I thought if I were to unmask myself and really reveal my true side to you, you would know what I have to go through. I kept myself guarded all these times because I totally refused to trust anyone, I don't ever want to be stupid enough to keep making the same mistakes over and over. Well now it seems that I will never learn even if I wanted to. I kept wondering and asking god why am I so gullible and everything that I do doesn't seem to work. Tell where did I go wrong. Why me? I thought we really had this connection and this "unspoken bond". What must I do to make it up to you? I'd do anything to make you forgive me. I may have been an asshole all this time but thats because I have an ego. I've never felt so miserable in my life. I guess this is my first. Please I beg you just don't leave me, I don't want to feel lonely anymore. I've loved you with all my heart. You know, watching you walking through that door one last time feels as if a part of me is missing. That other half of what makes me slowly rotting, dissipating deep into the depths of winter where the powdered snow carefully covers my heart and slowly ripping me away its warmth and love you once showered me with. My heart feels so empty without you around. Everything seems to have lost its meaning, colors started to fade, food has lost its taste and everything that matters, well does not seem to matter anymore. Well I don't know what has become of me now. The future sure is uncertain and I cannot really say that I will get through to the end but I really hope that by any chance our paths may intertwine again, till then I promise that I will always be waiting. Till then..........


PS: This story is fictional. Any resemblance with real life experiences or characters is purely coincidental. =P


LaterZ