things i never told anyone...

these are the few things that i have never told anyone...

1. i hate losing...in fact i am afraid of losing
2. i'm jealous of people around me almost all the time
3. i hate sarcasms and indirect insults
4. i hate to feel inferior
5. i never liked being labelled
6. always thought that everyone is better than me...that i suck at everything i do
7. the feeling of getting backstabbed.....most of the time
8. don't tell me how to behave and how i should present myself...i will think that whatever i do will never statisfy them
9. although i am cocky, i dont feel entirely GREAT because i am not strong
10. this passion that always kills me...watever u ppl want to define it...i just hate to fall in and out of it...
11. i wear mask all the time so that people will never get to see the real me...but i do take it off occasionally without realising it
12. they never understand
13. i am always treated as a tool for other people's benefits
14. i can be suicidal...thinking about death and people will feel when die
15. everyone is so perfect but i'm not...
16. im a useless piece of shit...
17. i dont feel appreciated for some reason...
18. watever their expectations are...