it's lunch time in school now. I don't like bringing my laptop to school. The reason is that it is bulky and heavy. Plus I don't really need to use the lappy during most of my classes. actually i thought that i'll have something to ramble about because a lot of things have gone my mind but when once i have logged in, i found out that i don't really have anything to post or at least i don't know how to start.

i really wonder why locals don't appreciate their own country's artistic and music talents. I mean every time i talk about the local music scene with my friends, their usual response will be, " ah? local music uh? wah lau they suck ass la! cannot even compare with other music! look at singapore idol la. wah lau that twohill think he sing damn good but actually he look like one zombie one!!".
it's pretty sad that they are not exposed to the real music scene in singapore. There even some locals who made it internationally and had tours and stuff yet none of them are acknowledged by their own people. it's really a pity when they aren't even proud of these small bunch of people who really love what they are doing. Why can't they brag about our music scene when they can be so arrogant overseas, showing the foreigners off saying that they have the best airport, the best train and bus system, singapore is very clean and very safe thanks to the country's tight security system( well i think now they are gonna stop bragging about that...haha).

on a lighter note, lollipop is just around the corner. will be going with see toh and supposedly his classmates. apparently none of my classmates were interested. only a handful of them were interested but they arent sure whether they will really be going this friday night. so uh it was a bummer...

School starts

I haven't really got time or the energy to post anything up. I must say that waking up at 6 every morning and trying to stay awake throughout the whole day while trying to pay attention during lectures has been a challenge. Others might find this a routine but I'm just trying to get use to waking up in the morning since I usually sleep in the morning and will wake up late the afternoon during the holidays.

School was boring as usual, but I seemed to be happy to be in school. I don't know why but I'm just glad. The tables and chairs (actually they are the table and chair combined) in the lecture hall aren't comfortable enough for me to catch a nap for the entire lecture. The lecturers uses microphones while they speak so that the last benchers are able to hear them when they're teaching, but the speakers are so loud that it's hard for me to doze off. So I don't think that I will be able to sleep now during lectures.

Tutorials are okay I guess. Not much different from last year. Same goes for practical classes.

From now onwards muay thai trainings will held in school every Saturday. This sucks because training won't be at fight g anymore. I've spent most of my holidays at fight g training and i love hanging out there after training. i'm pretty much going to miss fight g now.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention that channel 5 just broadcast the contender asia on tv. theyre like so late la. I'm almost done watching the show on AXN. Too bad for those who don't have cable subscriptions there are going to be a lot of spoilers around them haha.

Dream

okay i had this weird dream last night. Why must the timing be so goddamn 'perfect' that i have to dream about her, when i have pretty much moved on and am stronger now. I mean like goshh... this shit happened ages ago and i pretty much didn't give a damn about it.

but the thing is even though i was aware that this was all a dream,not knowing the reason why, suddenly it felt so real. as in real...

but thanks to that i felt confused and definitely emo when i woke up this afternoon....gosh -.-


maybe i write/type/post what happened in that dream later on but trust me it will sound stupid.

I was just going through my previous posts especially the entries I wrote back in year 2006. All I can say now looking back to how I was then really amuses me. I was so naive and stupid and gosh I can't believe that I would really post such entries.

Other than that, I just spend the day sitting on my couch randomly surfing the net and listening and orgainising my music folder in my lappy as I just downloaded Kishidan's compilation album.

School's just around the corner and I haven't buy my staionaries and notebooks. Oh well I can just do that during the first day when school starts

Birthday Wishlist

Well, it's 9th April today. That means there's 3 more weeks before I turn 18? omigosh I haven't realised that I have grown so old. LMAO



Since i've never make my own birthday wishlist before, this is gonna be my first...






an acoustic guitar

Heavy bag, aprox 150 cm?
LEON PAUL sabre gloves

Hi-tech blades. gosh this shoe is like really durable la. I used this pair before and it lasted me 2 - 3 yrs. note that i was a competitive fencer then, only a little bit more competitive than now.
FIE breeches
FIE fencing jacket
FIE plastron
Leon paul FIE sabre mask....
new pair of handwraps
I really dig this muay thai shorts!!


muay thai gloves, i mean THIS muay thai gloves, 12 oz





so yea thats pretty much what i want. I still havent included YUI's new album and a couple of books that i wanna read. oh yea and a lot of DVDs too...

and a chance to meet YUI real life will be like a dream come true....lmao

Wow....
I never expected you to be like that. After all we've been through, all the fuck ups and tears that we shared, you are willing to let it all end like this? How could you be so self-centered and ignorant. To be honest I never expect that from you, or at least I refused to. I was willing to share my world with you, going higher than the mountains and deeper than the ocean. I thought that you would understand. I thought if I were to unmask myself and really reveal my true side to you, you would know what I have to go through. I kept myself guarded all these times because I totally refused to trust anyone, I don't ever want to be stupid enough to keep making the same mistakes over and over. Well now it seems that I will never learn even if I wanted to. I kept wondering and asking god why am I so gullible and everything that I do doesn't seem to work. Tell where did I go wrong. Why me? I thought we really had this connection and this "unspoken bond". What must I do to make it up to you? I'd do anything to make you forgive me. I may have been an asshole all this time but thats because I have an ego. I've never felt so miserable in my life. I guess this is my first. Please I beg you just don't leave me, I don't want to feel lonely anymore. I've loved you with all my heart. You know, watching you walking through that door one last time feels as if a part of me is missing. That other half of what makes me slowly rotting, dissipating deep into the depths of winter where the powdered snow carefully covers my heart and slowly ripping me away its warmth and love you once showered me with. My heart feels so empty without you around. Everything seems to have lost its meaning, colors started to fade, food has lost its taste and everything that matters, well does not seem to matter anymore. Well I don't know what has become of me now. The future sure is uncertain and I cannot really say that I will get through to the end but I really hope that by any chance our paths may intertwine again, till then I promise that I will always be waiting. Till then..........


PS: This story is fictional. Any resemblance with real life experiences or characters is purely coincidental. =P


LaterZ

Just woke up at 12 today. So pretty much nothing unusual or anything worth posting happened yet. Planning to prepare for school today, do a little bit of revising and stuff because I have forgotten almost everything that I learnt last year and when I browsed through my this sem's lecture notes, I couldn't make sense out of any of it so yeah...

There's muay thai training today but I decided not to go.

I really hope that school's gonna be different this year.

Downloaded and watched Never Back Down the other day. The movie's alright for me, very action-packed. The fighting style for both the protagonist and the antagonist is MMA. Superb fight sequence. Unfortunately it didn't make up with the plot of the movie with was cheesy and totally obvious. Nevertheless, it's a good movie to watch for those action junkie and anybody who's interested in MMA because I feel they do choreograph nice combos.


Here's the link to the trailer