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Gosh I really have been neglecting my blog. Well I’ve really been busy and I got nothing to blog about, due to lack of inspiration. Life has been…okay. It was quite hectic, and a little bit complicated . I’ve been having these mixed emotions and i don't like it. I guess it’s just because I didn’t get everything I want. I lost in the Asian Schools Fencing Championships recently, as all of you might have known. I guess they all knew my weakness, darn. After Asian Schools, I have been feeling afraid. I really don’t know why, just scared. It’s not everyday that you get this feeling that someone is trying to kill you. Okay, I’m exaggerating. It’s just fencing rivalry thingy…never mind.

Semester Exam is just around the corner. This time I better start mugging now, no more procrastination lol. I don’t want to get Fs for my paper again. Since fencing competition season is over (I hope…), I got more time to study now. I’ll still train though, because I don’t want to lose my fencing form by the time exam’s over.

I don’t know what to write
Uninspired
Want to get the fuck out of here
How I wish so
Scared
Of what I didn’t know
Okay this is crap
Sometimes I just want to let everything go
Totally random
Maybe next time

Jackass Fucking off…

I lost today... I know...


no need to tell me...i suck...

Distorted Reality

She’s prepared a delicious meal:
for tonight her daughter is home;
Yet as she sets the table,
she knows she’ll be dining alone.

The Teenager calls from her bedroom,
”I’m not hungry, but thank you Mom”;
It’s an answer she’s heard a hundred times,
and she knows that something is wrong.

No matter what she prepares,
her daughter will not take a bite;
A choice that up until lately,
would have surely incited a fight

Her heart begins to silently cry,
as she hears her little girl’s voice;
She remembers what the Doctor said,
“Her death will be her own choice.

Your’ daughter is Anorexic”,
And she questioned, “How can that be;
She’s smaller now than in grade school,
When she only weighed ninety-three”.

“Anorexia Nervosas,
is an understood, deadly Disease;
Your’ daughter thinks herself to be fat,
even though her bone’s can be seen.

I could admit her to the Hospital,
and force feed her through a tube;
But unless she truly wants to seek help
there is little that we can do”.

The Mother snaps back to reality,
for her daughter she once again Prays;
Who is obsessed with being thin,
her life is the price she will pay.




Jilian Alexis

Never thought that she would be
In this world of hypocrisy
Such an irony
She never want to flee

She's been loved, she's been adored
She is what any girl would want to be
Carefree, bliss
She seemed so perfect, so...

She thought, realised
What those words really meant
She saw,
the cunning foxes within them

She wants to break free
She could'nt take this reality
Running away, cutting and slashing
She found a new friend- Ecstasy

So peaceful she seemed
All her pain she had bear
All the blood that she had shed
She finally understood

Now that she is asleep
I guess she will be for eternity
Though everyone is parading
She still smiles, and try to look happy

Lessons resumed today, after one whole week of exams. I’ve been trying to make a point to blog but I guess I’ve gotten lazy. Nothing much has been happening today. Well I got my admin card back!!! Yayness… I am beginning to realize that Character Development Module has been a criminal waste of time. I don’t see any relevance to what I’m studying for, yet our assignments are really tedious. I mean we got to make some movie clip presentation and community service etc… so yea I’m really getting sick of this.

Anyway, it’s really true. AVENGED SEVENFOLD IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!! Along with Gym Class Heroes, Good Charlotte, Cobra Starship, The Academy Is…, Black Eyed Peas and more. I can’t recall the other bands’ names but I bet they are good. Sing fest 2007 will be held at Fort Canning, 9th August (I don’t give a fuck about Singapore being 41 years old!! Lol) Tickets will be sold at the door for 150 bucks!!! And I bet it will be the first come first serve basis thing. Everybody is going to start camping for the tickets, so I guess I’ll have to join them too. I hope that the tickets won’t get sold out.

I know this is quite late but Ms Teo postponed the choir recital again, this time it will be on the last day before the September term break. It’s starting to annoy me every time she pushes the recital further. She wanted me to perform for the recital, but when I asked her about my solo practice like what time does she want to start the practice, she will make a lot of excuses saying that she had just lost her voice etc. I want to do my best for the recital and make a good performance. How can these be achieved when I don’t get enough practice and rehearsals? Yes I am ranting now but I just need to let some steam off. Speaking of choir, I understand that I have some conflicts in the choir. These had made me quite unpopular among the choir members. Some due to the fact that I have received some biased treatment which I know that it had never been my fault, and other personal matters. Hack it, I know I’ve been well-disliked. Well anyway for you information, I don’t give a damn about the choir because I am not a Tanglinian anymore. Do what you want, and don’t give a damn because I do not belong there. I’ll be glad to leave if you people want me to. You guys shouldn’t bitch behind my back because I am feeling the same way as you guys are. I really got sick of the choir. the reason why I’m back is because some people ask me to come back.

Change topic, had Ngee Ann and Tanglin fencing friendly competition last week. Of course, my team got first in ranking HAHAHAHAHA!!!! Cocky I know. I was so exhausted at the end of the day I can sleep for a week without waking up even once! Haha... Mihai is coming back today so training will resume on Friday. Fuck I really need to win Asian School’s Fencing Championships and do really well for fencing. Well it’s just for some personal achievement.

Well there isn’t much for me to write for now, so toodles!!

JACKASS FUCKING OFF!!!