Saturday, September 30, 2006

there is something in the air tonight

A sudden chill. There's something coming in the air tonight. What is this feeling, so portentous, so unpredictable. I gripped my rapier hilt hard. I must anticipate for something but I do not know what. Despite being warped by confusion, I continued my journey to the church. A duel awaits me. Our families have been fighting for years and the conflicts we shared were never resolved. My heart burned with so much vengeance and hatred I did not care whatever happens to me, as long as my family's honour is restored. He murdered my wife and my little angels. Why, why them? They had got nothing to do with this dispute. Why must they bear the consequences. Little blots of water droplets flowed down my cheeks clenching my fist so hard as i put up a negative smile on my face. The atmostphere was still very cold and tense. This was one of the worst nights I ever experienced in my whole life spent in Paris. The sound of my boots clashing with the brick road echoed as i walked in this silent night. I knew one of the bloody Capulets is following me trailing my every step. I hated stalkers. They make me feel so intimidated and hostile. I stopped and stand still, then i turned behind.

" Show yourself!!! There is no reason for you to hide! I know you're there", I yelled.

Yet, there was no response. Fine, have it your way. I drew my gun and fired a shot. BANG!!! It was so loud that it could wake those who we resting in peace. Then the atmostphere turned cold, slient and tense all over again. A young Capulet showed himself. Aged thirteen I thought. Marcel would have been about this age if he were still alive. The young capulet appeared to be shivering. Tears rolled down his cheeks.

" I'm not letting you go and kill my father!!! You cannot do this!!! I won't let you!! ", he drew a gun.

I sense fear and despair by the look in his eyes. I never intended to kill a Capulet. I only wanted to regain my family's lost honour. I never mean to murder this boy's mother. I remembered that incident which had still haunt me for years.

"Go home, you are of no use here," i muttered. "Don't waste your life by attempting to kill me," I continued as i gripped my magnum and aim it towards him. He froze and his shivers seemed more intensed.

"No Logan. This is not the way. He had got nothing to do with this," I pulled the trigger.

Again the noise echoed through the still air. The gun held by that young Capulet flew in the air and dropped heavily to the ground. The young capulet just froze in shocked, thinking whether he was dead or unfortunately still alive. More tears flowing down his cheeks and he started to cry violently.

"Go home boy. Don't even try to hurt me because your efforts will be futile," i whispered as i continued on to my journey.

Finally i had reached the church, where Leo was waiting for me. The air seemed colder than it was before. Not knowing what cause it, I'm trying to overcome my ownm personal fear of .....dimly-lit candles light up the pitch-black courtyard of the church. Hostility and vendetta soon walked into the courtyard stealthily. I felt every muscle cells in my body had turned subzero. I could'nt move. I finally realised why it is a good thing to say your prayers before starting anything that is really important to you. The preciding judge came soon after. Dressing formally, he muttered in his French accent "Gentlemen, you know ze rules. First blood drawn wins. En garde gentlemen."

" That is why we're here," I bellowed with anger and such vengeance in my tone, refusing to fight first. " I will never forgive you for what you did to my family name, such disgrace. Although our family had been rivals, I still treated you like my brother. We were friends since we were little. We did not care about our family rivalries because we thought that it was STUPID!!!!!!!! Just what are you trying to prove!!!"

" Gentlemen please, we are here zo fence. Zere shouldn't be..."

" What I am trying to prove aye? The answer to your quetions is that to be better than YOU!!!" said Leo.

I was completely stunned." What do you mean?"

" You are always better than me in everything I do! You always steal the limelight from me!!! I wasn't able to prove myself to be in the Capulet family!! My family didn't trust me just because I am your friend. This is what I am destined for. From that time I no longer consider you as my friend but a member of the Belle family, the family that the Capulets despise most!! Now I've said what I am trying to prove, now fence!!"

"Gentlemen, engarde, ready...fence"

to be continued........LAME!!!!!!!!hahahas....







Saturday, September 16, 2006

perth trip memories

perth trip photos....still remember how we got mooned



at the airport












my immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

asian schools champs 2006

some things i heard during the 1st asian schools champs 2006....
sadly i can only recall the cheers from the malaysians...
here goes...

'go malaysia gemilang...malaysia gemilang...hoohaa!!!'
'malaysia boleh! malaysia boleh! malaysia boleh! boleh! boleh!!'
tepuk sekali! tepuk dua kali! tepuk tiga kali!tepuk...tepuk...tepuk...MALAYSIA!!!!'

yer basically thats it....hmm...so patriotic...

Saturday, September 02, 2006

no promises...

it's been weeks since we talked. though we hide our faces from each other, the image of your beautiful face is still fresh in my confused and disillusioned mind. filled with doubt, guilt and confusion, i feel as if i am tearing myself apart. i've seen the moon but not you, i've seen the sunsets and all the sunrises, but they are nothing compared to your beautiful face. i miss you like the sun misses the flower, like the sun misses the flower in the cold hard and emotionless depth of winter. like the rose enduring the cold of the winter, i have become too. i become cold and hard like i have been like this before. i became harsh and cold due to my ego and hunger for your love. like i said by staring into your eyes, and you staring back at mine, Time just freezes. my mind become a vacuum. it makes me feel very haapy, at the same time so sad. it makes me feel very strong yet very sad and doubtful and it makes me feel very bold and the same time so cowardly. basically i do not know how i exactly feel, except the kind of man i want to be. it's like i have reached the unreachable and never looking back. any way it feels good.

i feel part of me have become incomplete. it has been weeks since we hide our eyes from each other. i dont know why but i dont want to think to much because i never want to repeat the same mistakes because only fools make the same mistakes. i am no fool. it is ironic because i am like one now. i dont know whether i am too late or i am just being such a fool. maybe i am just plain stupid. it is as if i am trying to have the universe in my own hands. maybe i really need to wait for ten years and see if fate is being fair to me.

i don't want to hide my face anymore. i don't want to run away anymore. act happy and putting on masks. just fuck it i don't care i dont wanna do this anymore. i want to live my life like how i used to and it has been bugging me. i'm here without you. i am trapped in my whole hectic life which i wish it would be made much simpler. i love you but i just cant show and i guess i never will. i feel so lonely and quiet though i am surrounded with a lot of people. i sat still staring blankly at the stars in the night. at the same time i reminisced all the time we had during the march holidays and i laughed at myself for the stupidest things we used to do. melancholy soon filled the air, knowing that feelings change and everything changes. can't accept the fact that those things we did have become some mere memories. i dont want us to be beligerent anymore. i dont want us to jeopardise our friendship that we had since we just met...but there is no promises that these can be fulfilled...................................

i swear

I swear by the the moon
And the stars in the skys
And i swear like the
Shadow that's by your side

I see the questions in your eyes
I know what's weighing on your mind
You can be sure i know my part
'cause i stand beside you through the years
You'll only cry those happy tears
And though i make mistakes
I'll never break your heart

And i swear by the moon
And the stars in the skys i'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
I swear

I'll give you every thing i can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the wall
And when just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if i still care
'cause as the time turns the page
My love won't age at all


And i swear by the moon
And the stars in the skys i'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there for better or worse
Till death do us part i'll love you
With every beat of my heart and i swear
And i swear by the moon
And the stars in the skys i'll be there
I swear like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part i'll love you
With every single beat of my heart
I swear i swear i swear