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how would you feel...
if there's someone you feel you got to protect so much..
but it turns out...
she has been the source of your pain..

you want to be a hero, vigilante...
spend your protecting and fighting villiains..
but now it is as if the Dark Knight...
is shattered just because of love and desperations..
wonder why i am asking all this,trust me
this is exactly how i feel..

i never wanted this...
all this while trying to there for someone..
but now i realise that those who protect others...
needs protection themselves...

feeling guilty, blaming myself...
blaming myself for being too weak but
there's nothing i could do...
like an empty boat floating on a huge storm...

she wanted ice, i bring her an iceberg...
she wanted water, i bring her the ocean...
she wanted something so simple but
im always ready to bring her a mountain..

i climbed the highest mountains...
i swam the stormy seas...
i've been through shit...
i felt that what i did have been a waste of time...

is this retribution..
is this my punishments..if it really is...
You just might as well kill me..
my courage and spirit is like a small coal..
that i kept swallowing..

it's failing me..
it weighs me...
i dont want to turn to the Other side of me..
but It's bringing me there

Its warping around me..
i never felt soo embarrased before..
i dont want to say no more..
cause it hurts me..
i'll just f*** off...
bye..