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imagine me..
when i'm not the way you want me to be..
imagine me..
when i have no purpose in life anymore..
will you still love and care for me..
if so...could i possibly do the same for you...

when you still do love me..
you will always be in here...
together with me..
going through thick and thin together..

if you really still do love me..
you will always be in here..
even if i am not the one who i am used to be...

just asking you...
whether you really know me...inside out...
and if you don't will you really accept me for who i am..
cause if you do...

i am gonna......


naz..

wat i did today....or yesterday...

damn it...i can die of boredom man....waiting for the school break to end...planning to parkour at noon again(if the weather is okay..now trying to conquer blk 159-161).today was seriously damn BORING!!!! all i do for the day is sleep,eat and i was forced to clean up my room....which i never always do..
the my dad came back for work and go to a mosque...had our evening prayers there...and more prayers...we left earlier than expected because i thought there would be some preaching...then we all went to a cultural museum and i got to know more about my roots and the history of our country..after that...we stopped by at a music shop...guess what ...i found one of 'sweet charity' albums..woo hoo!!!i just bought that cd with the approval of my dad(my dad is a fan too)...and ignoring my mom's black face..hahas..everybody's hungry so we dine at a turkish restaurant..faggot they made us wait for almost an hour...i was really pissed off , made me wait for soo long...but it's all worth it...the food was not bad...although all i tasted was only cheese..but overall...evrything is not bad..now i'm at home...blogging before i go to sleep...listening to 'sweet charity' songs....how i love 8os rock...ROCK NEVER DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hurray..its cny..
a lot of time for parkour
a lot of time for fencing training..
a lot of time to train and slack..
BUT..
alot of homework...
a lot of tests..
a lot of assignments and projects..
have to complete in 3 days...
wah...sian..but..gotta do..
you don't want to see mrs chng screaming in front of your face..lol..
seems everybody's happy now..having time with their family..
dats the way it has to be..
respect our elders..we dont know when they would be gone..

now got nothin to do..except for completing my hw..
and thinkin of her...
still can recall the way you looked at me..
and me lookin at you right to the eye..
and exchage stares from far distance (actualli quite nearlah...nt so far)
me blown away...
i just like to stare at your eyes...though couldnt figure out..wad you are tryin to say...
that feeling i get from those stares and all of those glances..
wish that feeling would last forever..
i like it when you smile..seeing what you have always loved doing..
although i didnt like your choice of music..

at last after three months...i started my parkour training under the hot sun..this afternoon
climbing flats and vaulting ove railings..jumping off rooftops..man it feels great..
and realised tha i am really really rusty..at least i can get to do it every Sunday....lol..

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i like the way she smiles...
the way she laugh..
her sense of humour....
her eyes...

how i glance at her
then she turned back and look at me..
she's the only one that made me skip a heartbeat
a sudden adrenalin rush all over your body...
once that incident is over,
wow...i feel good...feels like i'm a new man..

and how i hated it..
to see her get upset..
to see her cry...
to see her troubled..
and knowing that there's nothing i can do..
made me feel as sucky as ever..

shes the one whom i think is humourous
shes the one whom i've been thinking about for so many months..
and we would glance at each other..
at least once a day..
i really liked her..
and whom i can't stop thinking about for so long..

never knew how pathetic i can get

how would you feel...
if someone had hurt you...
and youre so fucked up with that...
you started to get upset about it...
and wasted your time thinkin about it..

then everybody knew about that incident...
the one whom 'hurt' you lost her respect from others..
and then a few of your friends hated her for what she had done...

one faithfull day..you've found out the whole story...
realised that everything was your fault...
you start recalling everything you said about her...
felt really guilty and at the same time...
feel that it's too late to apologise...
something you would regret for life