hehe..yea..thats her..back in perth..

untitled...why..

fuck...i cant help blaming myself..if only i was a little quicker..why didnt you give me the chance...if only i could prove that im worthy...like i said ..i never want to be the toy which you cant neglect anyhow...everyone said..dont messed with her feelings man..but whos messing around with whos feelings now...you know that i have loved you....yet i always got the feeling that you forgot what i said when i confessed my feelings for you..i even thought that you have forgotten what you told me after i confessed...now..i feel like shit..you took everything thats left in me...i gave everything to you...my trust and love to you...now it seems that im begging for help...please i beg of you...what am i to do..what am i going to do..how am i going to move on without thinking of you 24/7..i still cant get over with the fact over what you said..the first time i tolerated though i was depressed the whole day...the thing that i gave up hope...was you...it wasnt anything..oh how i wish we were not in singapore but back in perth...those were the good memories where there wasnt anybody to intervene and we were able to spend most of our time together..where i have all the time for you...i felt that you have forgotten those days...but guess what...i WILL never forget that...

i guess i dont have a place in your heart anymore huh..i knew that sooner or later i will get played by you..i was risking my pride when i loved you...i gambled with everything i had...but i lost...twice...well nad should consider himself fucking lucky because he already got somebody so special...and that someone is freaking special to me..but all i want to ask you is whether you still do have feelings for me (what are you talking about you motherfucker!!! aint it obvious..)...why...why me...you know that i have been waiting for all along but how can you treat me like this..i dont understand...well i know that he is better than me..if you look at me im just an ordinary fucker who thinks that he can change the stars....HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! ):...to you i may be the i-dunno-how-many-hundredth guy who have confessed his feelings to you...but to me...you were the first one that i have ever confessed to....and maybe i am the i-dunno-how-many-thousandth guy to whom you had confessed your feelings to..but you were the first girl in my life who have said that to me....it was really sweet..and for the fucking first time i ever felt so wanted...so i really thought that you could be my first...and if fate let me....i want you to be my last...the pieces of my broken heart are so small that it can pass through the eye of the needle..

so let me remind you again that i love you...for fucking hell i should be fucking happy for you..(': ...anyway nad is a good guy...and im sure that he will treat you well...)': ..i missed you all this while and i will never forget all those good memories we shared..hahas..): ...one more thing...if you are really worried...i know you would... so dont...its your life...you make your own choice...better be wise ones ayte..i am not there to control you but if you need a shoulder to cry on...i will be always by your side...cause i will always wait for my turn to come...even if it takes me 10 motherfucking years...let me be your favourite teddybear or your most hated punching bag...i dont mind..
i want to thank you for making me feel wanted..at least there is somebody in this world knew that i have a big heart and i still do have feelings..i will never forget that...but...whats left of me...youve taken everything away..

tiger lily- matchbox romance

we drive tonight...and you are by my side..we're talking about our lives..like we've known each other forever..time flies by ..with the sound of your voice...it's close to paradise...with the end surely near..and if i could only stop the car and hold on to you..and never let go..i'll never let go...as we round the corner to your house..you turned to me and said," i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent"...and i want to speak these words but i guess,"i'll just bite my tougue"..and accept 'someday somehow' from the word tht we'll hang from..and i....i dont wanna speak these words...cause i....i dont wanna make things any worse...why does tonight...have to end...why dont we hit restart and pause at our favourite part..we'll skip the goodbyes...if i had it my way..i'd turn the car around and run away..just you and i.....and i..i dont wanna speak these words...cause i...i dont wanna make things any worst..and i..i dont wanna speak these words..cause i..i dont wanna make things...any worse...

i'll always remain yours..